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HOLY HELL! I haven't updated in a month! Please don't hate me.
What's new? I might retire. Yes, from acting. Not because I don't like it anymore but I've always wanted to a chef. Yes, I know I'm insane, you don't have to tell me twice. It's a profession that I've always wanted to try out. I've actually always wanted to go to culinary school. My life motto has always been that I must try all things once, at least. Keeps life more interesting I believe.
I was this close to becoming a lawyer, also. Went to law school & everything. Thought that was my passion...well, I suppose it still is, but I found solice in theatre. Now, I've found a new solice in, well...food. haha. No no, it's not the food aspect of it; it's creating a work of art out of food.
Oh, but who am I kidding. This is coming from a bloke who fucks up Easy Mac. Ohhhhh bollocks.
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[07 Mar 2005|08:44pm] |
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4 weeks, eh? I have lacking here for quite a while, but I have a good excuse...I swear?
...actually I really don't. To be honest, I forgot that I had one of these things & with work & Lily & everything in between, I could have cared less.
So, a shit of load of answering machine messages as well as emails later, I am here. Safe & sound. I will try to update at least once a week (wishful thinking but you can't shoot me for trying).
Goblet of Fire is going well. We're almost done...at least the scenes involving me are almost done so I'm good to go to finish off more projects!
Hope everyone is doing quite well. And, no, I have not forgetten any of you who would still like to go out for a pint. Still on?
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[01 Feb 2005|10:58pm] |
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I forgot that when ones starts a journal, one has to update it usually. It must have slipped my mind.
Sorry I've been "M.I.A." I've been...elsewhere. I have also been a arse, who deserves...well actually, I don't deserve anyone, I mean anything at the moment. Serves me right.
I should get out more, yes?
Life just seems to pass me by when I'm filming.
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[03 Jan 2005|06:42pm] |
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I feel as if someone has just socked me in the stomache. I believe the word regret is the word of the moment right now.
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[22 Dec 2004|11:31am] |
I kind of forgot that when one starts a journal, one is supposed to actually UPDATE it. :[
Hopefully, I can keep with up all the hullabaloo.
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| And so it goes... |
[01 Dec 2004|02:50am] |
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love is an accident...waiting to happen.
desire is a stranger...you think you know.
intimacy is a lie...we tell ourselves.
truth is a game...you play to win.
If you believe in love at first sight...you never stop looking.
Whoever said that life is just full of complications and interruptions could not have been more right. My life has suddenly & to my dismay, become one big jumble of dramatics. Where one ends, another begins. They all just flow together & I can't seem to piece them apart. These "episodes", if you will, are like just cooked spaghetti pasta, sticking together no matter how much you try to force them apart. I do know, though, that if I do try to separate each and every one of the complications that happen every day, I will send myself into oblivion- ultimately driving myself to possible insanity. You might soon be calling me "Bonkers McGee". Oh bother.
This has nothing to do with my professional career, in fact I feel as if I am at my peak; but rather, it has to do all with my personal life, which, as weird as it may sound, I feel like I have no control over. Do you ever get the feeling as if you are not yourself, mentally & emotionally? I mean, yes, physically we are all here, but other than that, there are days when I don't feel like Jason Isaacs. I don't feel like I should be doing what I'm doing...what I'm saying...how I'm acting...possibly how I look? It's a hard concept to grasp sometimes, but I try. It drives me mad, mind you, but I do think about it a lot.
Sometimes I wish I were young again. I see my young co-stars in the films that I am working in & I marvel at their innocence and care-free attitude (well...most of them. You know who you are.) No wait. Rewind. Before I even met these young adults, I saw the pure innocence in the eyes of my own child, Lily. She's very blunt, but that's okay because she's just a child. She really has nothing to worry about, except when Christmas is coming or when the next time she will get to have Jammy Dodgers as a snack. As I look out into the world & the current events, I wonder: What happened to the innocence in the world? Kids are growing up so fast nowadays, it saddens me. Before I know it, Lily will be a teenager, worrying about boys & make-up. Oh, what the future will bring...
Blimey, did I just go through my mid-life crisis?
To all who have been trying to get a hold of me, I apologize once again for my lack of, erm, response. I was shocked at how many messages I received on my answering machine that I was unaware of until an embarrassing number of days later. Toni, my dear, please forgive me. I did not mean to come off as too busy to talk to you; I really want to see you soon. I miss you. Gary, David & Alan: PINT? We should catch up on things. I feel as if I haven't seen you blokes in forever.
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[11 Nov 2004|10:24pm] |
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So I'm done filming my part in Elektra. No, I won't be kicking some major arse...although that would have been most amusing. I'm also done pulling several muscles in my ever so frail body of mine (har har) from Tennis...Anyone? So it's just Potter this and Potter that, now. Got to love that blonde wig of mine, eh?
I am holding a dinner party at my flat in London next week, sorry for such short notice. All my mates are invited, but please R.S.V.P. A.S.A.P. Thanks. Formal wear (I know I know...it's a pain but I do like the look and it will go better with the ambiance of my place).
Ayway, I hope everyone is doing well. I'm doing quite fine and would love to get a "surprise" visit from any one you lot. ;) HINT.
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[24 Oct 2004|05:39pm] |
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Thank you to all the kind words, regarding Lily's illness. She's doing much much better now (she's running around again...not sure if that's good or bad for me? haha)
Unfortunately, I think I caught her cold. Bloody hell. Chicken soup, anyone?
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[18 Oct 2004|09:53pm] |
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Lily's had a fever for the past couple days and is quite sick, so I've been taking her to the doctor's, which is why I've been "M.I.A." lately. She's getting better, but walking pneumonia does not go well with her (or her stomache).
I've never been a very religious person, but I pray to God everyday that she'll recover quickly. She's so young and I can't bear seeing her in pain. She needs the fatherly love and I'm there for her, even if I get sick because in the scheme of things, she's the only one in my life that means that much to me. The relationship between and a single father and daughter is something I can't quite explain; all I know is that she needs me 24/7. I'm sorry to anyone who wishes to see me or have a drink or whatnot, but right now I have more important things to take care of.
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| So, call me a lemming.... |
[06 Oct 2004|05:32pm] |
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So, tell me something. Anything. I would like to know your thoughts.
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[28 Sep 2004|05:56am] |
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It's rather flattering when someone's wife seems to be madly in love with me. ;-* I don't know what to do...except go with the flow. haha. I'm such a bloody wanker.
Let's see, what have I been up to lately? Filming. and showing off my "smooth" tennis skills for Tennis, anyone...? It was so embarrassing today when I fell on my arse while trying to show off my backhand. That's what I get for trying to impress all the ladies. haha Just kidding. I won't even try; I would just lose all dignity. And British men are supposed to maintain their dignity...right? ::snorts::
I've just realized what time it is. Why the hell am I up at such an ungodly hour??? Ah, well, I guess I'll go for my morning jog early today. Cheers.
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[23 Sep 2004|05:50am] |
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I had a lovely time with Lauren Graham and Toni Collette over the weekend. I arrived in Los Angeles on Saturday, where Lauren picked me up and then we went drinking (like good people do). God, I needed that desperately. She's a fun drinking partner, if anyone wanted to know. ;)
And then I met up with Toni, who I have just started to get acquainted with over the past weeks or so. She's a lovely married woman, though. Ah, all's well. It's quite odd though. I don't consider myself to be much of a flirt, but it does feel refreshing to be a bachelor again. I guess I don't feel as tied down anymore. Not that I don't still love Emma, my wife...or should I say "ex-wife"? I have no bloody clue, at the moment. It still seems surreal, to say the least. To cateogorize myself into the "single" category again doesn't even make sense to me. Should it? Have any of you been in the same situation as me? I just hope I don't die an old fogey...
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[30 Aug 2004|11:35pm] |
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"Once a jerk, always a jerk."
God I hate that saying. I'm sorry for all the wrong I have caused people. I'm sorry for the way I've treated all my close mates for the past week. I really think that there is a "male PMS", because I exude it. I'm known as "Uncle Jason" for chrissake, I can't be known as "Uncle Jason, the Jerk" now! So, I'M SORRY. I know that I have been quite distant for some time now and there are several reasons that are valid. But not here. Not now. It's too painful.
But, for now, I'm sorry. Pain just puts a burn in you to the core of your bone, doesn't it...
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[21 Aug 2004|12:25am] |
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I changed my mind about London. Things close too bloody early. I've been away from home for so long, I forgot that pubs close around 11 pm.
And people get drunk around 11 am...
...and then ride the tube...
...and then almost fall on you as they lose their balace when the car moves...
...while bellowing/slurrrrrrring "Harryyyyyy Pottttterrr baaaaaad" to your face...
...even though they're in the next car over.
Fiji, anyone?
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[13 Jul 2004|05:05pm] |
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Whoever said that with age comes maturity obviously lied.
I'm living proof. Just ask anyone who's worked with me. Ha.
I swear, when I'm at my craziest, I act like a bloody kid. Pulling practical jokes is my forte. Daniel Radcliffe could use a lesson or two from me. :P It really is a sickness, I can't help it. I suppose it's because I play mostly serious characters that I just have to let loose...or something. But I'm 41---I'm too old to act like that!
Jesus, there is so much you don't know about me. Hum.
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| A little update goes a long way. |
[03 Jul 2004|04:46pm] |
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Oh dear lord, everyone & their dog is moving away! It makes me quite sad that all my mates are leaving London. It's funny how much I've been away from the city that when I am actually here, I appreciate it so much more. God Save the Queen, right? har Har. But alas, I've also been thinking of taking some time off, but I'm forced not too, due to so many projects. Sigh. It's bittersweet, I suppose.
Emma & I are still sorting stuff out, what witht he impending DOOM of separating (for the time being...). We're still not sure how to break it poor Lily (seeing as she's only 2). We both feel so guilty & selfish. It's absolutely tearing me up inside. I'm constantly thinking about her & her sweet little face. & just my luck, I always have kids in all my movies! But, no, not your fault at all. It's me. It's ALL me.
So, to everyone on the set of GoF, I'm sorry if I'm a bit antsy/depressed/MENTAL...I hope you understand. I really shouldn't take my frusturations out on anyone else...god.
Bollocks, I need a drink desperately.
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[18 Jun 2004|02:33am] |
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Sometimes I don't think that I can continue with this...but then I see Lily's face & suck it up & try to go on a bit longer. Nothing ever seems right anymore. Is it worth staying put for the sake of Lily? Blimey, of course it is, why did I ever doubt that. It has been and will always be about Lily. Emma & I just need to...be adults about this & try to see it through. Though painful as it is, things should get better...right?
Yeah, that's what I have been telling myself for the past 3 years...
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